Psychology

The tinkling ice in the tilted glass questioned
Moslem? And you drink?
A little grin escaped my flabbergasted lips
I had to go back in memory

The days of the so called subjective purity
To the deity
The days of submissive obedience
Prudence to any fatal punishment

FEAR and Reward
The minute the corpse is put to ground
Mechanized with afterlife evils
Not the eminent pleasures of the Reward

Perfection, is what I sought
Yet I could never be perfectly
Doubtless of my imperfections
I had to give more

Yet, I couldn’t give more
Exhaustion to believe the unbelievable
Blindfolded, ensued my endless prayers for forgiveness
But I couldn’t stay blinded; after all I’m His creation

Mood of today; Gogoosh

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14 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Mini Я.
    Aug 29, 2006 @ 16:49:00

    Mmm..I could just feel that cool drink on my lips in the middle of this infernal heat…

    Lovely as always, you really sure know how to press the right buttons..

    :*

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  2. ولاّدة
    Aug 29, 2006 @ 21:09:00

    إشكالية العبد الذي يشهد أن لا إله إلا الله و يقيم الصلاة ويؤتي الزكاة ويصوم رمضان ويحج البيت وبعدها لا يعرف إن كان مصيره جنات النعيم إشكالية خطيرة
    سوء الظن في الرب عند بعض المتشددين هو أسوأ أنواع سوء الظن على الإطلاق

    أحبك أيا..والله كما هو في عمق إيماني بالتأكيد يحب روحك النقية

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  3. 9ahba'a
    Aug 29, 2006 @ 23:18:00

    Ayya what you write is exactly how i feel you some time express my feelings more than my self!
    every one says Islam answers all your questions …..
    I dont see where?? all my questions are taboo):

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  4. AyyA
    Aug 30, 2006 @ 13:29:00

    Mini Я.
    Thanks sweet mini and enjoy your drink while you can, because
    الغضب الساطع ات و انا كلي ايمان
    I hope I did not mess up with my Arabic, don’t laugh ;p
    ولاّدة
    The problem with religion is that it’s a totalitarism, and the more you go into details, the harder life becomes ( been there, done that). If God wanted us perfect, why didn’t he create perfection in us, like angels? If God didn’t want us to doubt, why did he create brains? If God didn’t want us to get buzzed, then why drinks give us this feeling? And why wine should be an incentive in heavens if it is forbidden on earth. Some say heaven’s wine does not make you drunk !!!then what is the use of rivers of grape juice? Personally; I neither like grapes nor its juice if it doesn’t give me a buzz. There are so many answered questions, no one more than Moslems can twist and turn the argument, in lengthy boring details to waver your questions. And the answer is always; a masterpiece thesis of garbage.
    And I don’t have to tell you how much I missed you, do I :*

    9ahba’a
    Islam answered a lot of my questions, one day I was a true student of faith, honest in my peruse. With open heart and mind, and an appetite to learn, but that was my mistake, I should have blindfolded my mind because Islam didn’t give me the right answers, and my mind couldn’t take any more.

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  5. mosan mosan
    Aug 30, 2006 @ 14:34:00

    Allahh gogoosh

    I saw her live when she came to kuwait ..eat your heart out

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  6. mosan mosan
    Aug 30, 2006 @ 14:38:00

    Welcome back dear friend and sa7 elsanch….

    and you know my opinion abt it ..dont let me start

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  7. بالديسار
    Aug 30, 2006 @ 15:24:00

    Moslem? And you drink?
    If I get a penny every time I’m asked this question. Even when I chose to live in Europe, still the same shit applies.
    Even when you run far away from everyone, you will always be haunted by the same question.

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  8. Midnight Madness
    Aug 30, 2006 @ 20:29:00

    love your blog
    as a 1st impression id like to keep my mouth shut too heheh

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  9. luloo
    Aug 31, 2006 @ 01:41:00

    Ayya

    Well said

    I went through the same phases and experiences. The problem, in my opinion, lies in the “absolute truth” myth. Submission to the “absolute truth” leads to frustration, dissatisfaction and inconsistency for perfectionism is impossible.

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  10. Kasik Ya Watan
    Aug 31, 2006 @ 02:22:00

    وأنا في بدايات سن المراهقة كان أصحابي يلجؤن لي للفتاوي الخفيفة مثل “هل يجوز أصلي وانا منزل إيدي” … “هل يجوز أنام على جنبي اليسار” … “هل يجوز أسمع أغاني في رمضان” … “هل يجوز أطول في النظرة الأولى للبنت”… “هل يجوز أسلم على غير المسلم” … وغيرها من الأسئلة السخيفة

    في أواخر مراهقتي … في بداية المرحلة الجامعية … كان الشباب يتجمعون حولي لمناقشة قضايا الدين وعظمة الإسلام

    بعد سن المراهقة إكتشفت إن ما عندي سالفة … الحمد لله على هلإكتشاف المنقذ

    هل كان لازم أتعمق في الدين علشان أكتشف هالشيء … يمكن

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  11. phoenix
    Aug 31, 2006 @ 02:35:00

    I just love the way yu entitled the mood of today!! GOGOSH…..

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  12. No3iK
    Sep 01, 2006 @ 03:33:00

    im not going to comment on the drinking part.

    but the wording!
    it is … full of art.
    i loved the way u expressed ur opinion in a very classy way.

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  13. AyyA
    Sep 01, 2006 @ 17:24:00

    Mosano babe
    lucky you :p

    Baldisar
    This is the fate of every Moslem

    MM
    Well it’s normal to keep our mouths shut, not otherwise.. did you ever wonder why?
    Loved your blog as well 🙂

    Luloo
    Glad that you could relate to my agony, thanks sweetie

    Kasak Ya Watan
    I guess you are right; without going into details, one can never see the truth, even if that was his truth.

    Phenix
    I bet, like me, you are one of her fans. And I always have special moods for her.

    No3ik
    And I loved your elegant comment, thanks

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  14. Jewaira
    Sep 02, 2006 @ 19:49:00

    It is just like awakening after being in a trance for a very long time.

    One must understand why one believes, and not believe just because another says you must.

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